Not Happy~

Seriously, why people can be so selfish, degil, harden their heart and thinking that they're the perfect and always right! What the... Just feel so sad and disappointed things happened recently... I don't want this to be happened..I just want it to be like before~~ I want peace! No quarrels! Everyone full of SMILES and LAUGHTERS... Life is always like that because human beings are in this world.. We're not perfect, ups and downs coming here and there.. Loves to play piano.. =) It makes me feels good and released!

I want this!

The little me~

Came back from my hometown few days back, its fun and enjoying. And really a surprise to my mom haha~~ At least i was there to help both my parents and brother who sick everytime I'm back and was able to see them =) My brother is getting more handsome~!!! hahaha Saw their faces, am very gald! As we're growing, their're getting older too. Saw their white hair, wrinkles and lots of sickness pop out. Mixed feelings here..haha How I wish I could juz stay and be with them whenever they need their children and loved ones.. Thinking of how they brought us up from a little baby of our hands size to a grown up adult who is independent strong and able to take care of other people, and one day they are going to get marry and have their own children. Most importantly is they can take care of their own parents like how they did to their children. Not all people able to do this and is sad! This is the little Adelene~

This is the Adelene now~haha

The same me who loves FOOD~!!!

the same me that loves to SMILE and LAUGH OUT LOUD~~

Che Pheng and me~We look alike too as we're like Sisters!kakaka

After seeing all this ages pictures, really appreciate our parents a lot! Their time, energy, money, and most important their LOVE towards children..no words can describe it.. Is just the true love and is 100% from their heart even though they dont know how to express it out.. But I know it deep down from my heart~ My family~ =)

Miracle happened too when I was going to airport that day.. At first planning to go to take out some cash as going by cab to airport. but am too drowsy and tired as just finish night shifts.. can't get up at all! When I was in the cab only I remember that my purse doesn't left much money.Only RM18. Ooppsss!!! Thinking that inside airport there's ATM in it. so able to get some cash.. When I reach airport, was so nervous asking the driver.. me: Unc, berapa ni? Driver: Biasa la..RM18.. me: HUH????? Ape??!!! RM18??? Driver: yala, kan biasa?...hahaha me: Oh ok..nah, ngam ngam RM18.. Me happily go inside airport, full of surprises~!!! hahahaha Give thanks for everything! and SMILE!!!

RAIN~!!!

The rain was FINALLY HERE~!!!! Woo hooo~~~ After few days of hazzy weather.. Hope it will bring fresher air for the next few days..hehehe

But today evening I'm going back to my hometown~!!! A big big surprise for my mom and family hehehe..Pray that the rain will subsides when its time for me to go to airport.haha So so excited after 6 months of working and staying in a hectic city.. Last night was working night shift as usual..'Paper work' >< But last night manage to work it all fast and smooth..hehehe without 'she' asking lots of questions..

KUALA TERENGGANU, MOM, DADDY AND MY BROTHER, I'M COMING BACK~~!!! love u all.. XD

Valentine's day??..

What is Valentine's day? It's more about giving out love to others than to receive from others. It's not only for couples, but for family and loved ones too...

It's another normal day for me again. NOTHING AT ALL! just like a single person hainging out with friends... Outing with friends are much more cheerful and satisfied than this!It has been for almost 2 years i bear with it.And now it has reached to the max!!!

I can't believe if you really care for that person, you'll definately find some ways to make them happy or surprise.Don't always expect things to be the same.things will change, more over human??...I think times up for you and i don't want to waste so much of my time and life depending on people anymore..Its useless!

Today 14.02.2012 is the end of it and the beggining of my new life. my worst day and my best one is coming! I've made up my mind.Family are always there for you no matter what happens.Their arms are always open for you to come back.It only depends on you yourself when to go back to that arm.For those who don't really appreaciate you for whatever you had done, just leave it asap. Do not let them drag you down as it hurt you the most..There's no more trust, secure, confidence, love anymore betwen us. Thats it! Do not expect things to get better without any actions plsss!!!

Here are some of photos during my CNY in Kuantan trip..hehe ^^
me and my handsome bro..






Yesterday there's 1 patient as we called him 'capten' as he works with British as a British capten who trains the rest.he is a very nice, cheerful, sensible and funny old pakcik.I used to take care of him..so yesterday was really a surprise for me..He ask his daughter to buy me a bar of chocolate as appreaciation.. I was so touch! Helping others is so much fun when you don't expect things to comes back, but when it did even its small..hehe

Its better than nothing!


Good night everyone~~ XD

08.01.2012

Why is so different between a girl and a guy?? From thoughts, perception, priority, opinion etc...

For guys-they will see the problem in front of them and trying hard to analyze it then solve it HIS way(forceful & selfish).They do not care of the feeling of others.Make sure its done and settled, thats all.. They do not take note of the little things that happened around them and the little things that caused them to quarreled.JUST DON'T CARE!

But for girls-they saw the problem in front, but they will think how to solve that problem in a peaceful way and will think of the feeling of others first no matter what!They don't like to solve it in a rough way or being rude to others. They will make sure every relationship they have with others is maintained..They don't like to quarrel(*except for some gals)and they don't like to shout to each other with no reasons!gals what, talk in a proper and nicer way la!


WHY DO GIRLS/LADIES NEED GUYS FOR???

-to be protected by him? -to work hard, save and plan for future?
-to quarrel with each other? -to be accompanied?
-to discuss things together? -to laugh together?
-to being love by him? -to marry and get pregnant?
-to get some surprises from him?
-to support each other no matter what happenes(*EVERYTHING)?
to tell each other your own secrets and thoughts?


BUT DO GUYS REALLY NEED GIRLS?OR JUST FOR OTHER REASONS?!WHY CAN'T GALS BE INDEPENDENT ON HERSELF AND TAKE CARE OF HER OWN LIFE?! DO GUYS REALLY NEED, APPRECIATE AND LOVE THEIR LOVEONES???DO YOU LOVE YOUR GIRLFRIEND?DO YOU GUYS REALLY LOVE YOUR WIFE?

OR YOU ONLY LOVE YOUR EX-GF BUT NO LONGER YOUR WIFE??? I DON'T KNOW...

Now here I am to say-I'm scared of my future.really scared what will happen to me in the future..what i'm doing that time no one knows except God..who i will marry to and to live together for the rest of my life??!!!

Waiting for the good I guess..

Well, it has been such a long time didn't update as I can't sign in.some problem occurs.. But now , I'm back. . . =D

This season there were ups and downs going on and coming up and has been the BEST and the WORST. Everything that could goes right end up went wrong.

As I grew up day by days(older), many things happens everyday and I can’t understand why things happen when they happen and I'll have my thinking and perceptions changed.Instead, I guess as you grow older you begin to realize that bad things are sometimes the best things that could ever happen to you. God many times will allow everything in your life to fall apart just to remind you that the things of this world that we are so desperately dependent upon are really not that important.


Sometimes we get so caught up in what we need to do that we forget where we are and who we are. We are not human doings, we are human beings. The being part is what I think most of us have the most difficulty with. 'What does it mean to just be?' To be yourself and not care what others think. It is easy to say that but it is not easy to be that. It is that kind of courage to be your true self. True courage comes when we are not afraid to truly be ourselves, when we stop living under someone else life and we begin to follow our heart.


I've been living under people's life and doesn't truly be myself.Its really a hard time for me. I'll say YES no matter what and doesn't really bother about my own situations,conditions and ability. I'll try to help others when they're in need even though I'm struggling on the other side.Well, all I'm doing is that I think they may need my hands to help them out so I did and I'll be very happy and glad that all went smooth. The worst thing is when you're trying to do your best and be a helping hand, others don't appreciate it at all and simply talk bad things and judging you.


I always tell my friends and others- You do your best and your part, let God do the rest.when something happened that you're truly innocent and the truth is not as how they think, don't shine and tell the truth yourself.Its useless!Let God do it for you and shut their mouth ever. I've always believe in this.but now, things really happened on me.It's quite hard for me to accept what others is talking and judging.

The words that spoke out really impact one a lot.It maybe encouraging, helpful, destroy, hurtful etc..Think before you speak anything out from your mouth.Sometimes, we don't realize any small actions or words we spoke hurt one a lots.We don't realized own mistakes and if others tells us, please accept it humbly and realized and changed.

To be able to be imperfect and know that you belong still and are accepted. To realize no matter what you do or don’t do right or wrong that God understands and loves you the same either way...

=)

"Show me your friends and I'll show you your future"

"My friends in hometown once told me something that I never forgotten. He said 'show me your friends and I will show you your future'. I carry this thought around with me, even to this day. So I say to you: choose your friends wisely , for they will shape your thoughts, habits and values – and the way you view the world – more than you could ever realize at this very moment.”



The Outcome Of Your Life Is Completely Dependent Upon Whom You Call Friend.



"He who walks with wise men will be wise, but the companion of fools will be
destroyed."
Proverbs 13:20 (NKJV)


There are essentially two kinds of people in our lives - those who seek comfort in companionship, and those have an insatiable passion to change.

*Individuals who make us comfortable don't have the ability to spur us on.


• They don't cause us to change.
• They don't urge us to become better.
• They are content with mediocrity, stuck in their comfort zone, and truly never break free.
On the other hand, there are those who are assigned to our lives to help us change.
• They are usually the authorities God places over us.
• They exist in various arenas of life, including our employers, parents, and pastor.
• They are vital to our growth.



Although we may feel pressure from those assigned to our lives to help us change, we must stay connected to these people since this type of pressure is for our growth and development. It is a necessity for you to become what God desires. If we turn our backs on our authorities and become a companion of those who are disrespectful, the Word of God tells us we will suffer severe consequences. We must acknowledge the significance and importance of relationships! Those we call our "friends" determine the outcome of our lives. May your friends only be those who draw you closer to the will of God for your life, and may you do the same in their lives.



I hope that all of us have at least 2 people whom we can call friends in our lives =)


Live life to the fullest!!!




~Cheers~

~beachsick~

I LOVESSS Beaches...muackz muackz ^3^
play and soak myself inside the sands...wahahahahahaha




I must go to beach when i'm back to my hometown!!!~~KUALA TERENGGANU!!!

YEAH~~~


RELEASE STRESS... SUPER TIRED...







recently my body got dehydrated.. lips cracked, face and skin super dry..

SO... What did i do?...

Overload myself with 600ml of RIBENA in 1 night!!! hehehehehe




hmmm~~~yummy yummy..surrpp.... BURPPP... AAHHHHHH~~~~~

thank god all assignments are ALL DONE!!! One came after another...




they were killing..and as a photostat officer too argggh... XD

but..hehe this week is the last week in college..then the following week i'm going back for CHINESE NEW YEAR for 1 week..hehe this motivates me up...

then start posting in hospital + management...


OK well..by the way, our final is on Thursday and Friday..hehe gonna catch up with books already ^^

ok gtg.. tatta =)

Euphoria!!! haha

Yay!!! ^^

Yeepy!!! ^^

Hooray!!! ^^ HOHOHOHOHOHO

WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA... =D

i'm going to youth camp now..hehe

where?? hmmm.... I think is in...

..............

Ah ha!!! its "BROGA HILL"... HEHE

see u..

yeeppyyy!!!!

Thanks dad even things seems no more hope and chances but there is still got if you BELIVE and have FAITH in HIM~~~ ^^

'FAITH'




thanks dad for the solutions!!! its super AWESOME!!!!!!

hehehehehehehe yea!!! I am going to the camp!!!! =D

not just ME alone..

I've learned lots about being in a relationship..is not just you alone throughout the journey.. Is both you and patner together.. =)

Even there's an misunderstood or still quarrels, but thats a good sign- that is you get to know each other more deeper and closer.sometimes its a fun to have quarrels and scolidng each other, throwing everything towards your patner hahahaha!!!

Its really a though journey but depends on how you settle it and sees things work out..

Thanks dear!!! =D

Friendship..

Recently just thinking about relationships.. relationship with parents, aquaintance, close friends, girl or boyfriend, spouses etc... All these relationship are truely fully important to all of us!!!

Now what is Friendship??...
some people said:
~"Friendship is like a contract. They’re just bound to last only for a given time. After it reached that point, there’s no more. After college, we have our own lives. Chances that we will be like this in the distant future are nil.”

~"Friendship is like a golden thread that binds two hearts...A feeling that keeps growing even when we are far apart...No matter where we are, I want you to know you're a friend i feel..."

~"Friends are like ballons.If you let them go, you can't get them back."

This really strucked me..It might be the reality about friends.Yes, it is true that we have friends or we make friends because of something. That something means similar goals and identical purpose, all falls only under a period of time.

But, I don’t look at it that way. Friendship doesn’t require similarities but rather differences to help each other grow. It’s not how you influence one another but how you bring out each other’s best.

Friendship has no vows, no rituals, no conditions, and no requirements. It only needs people willing enough to care and make friendship a lifetime.

But how can they learn lessons if I will just let them copy my work? How can they make a better person out of themselves if I am the one doing their tasks? I give my help in a different shade. I offer myself to clarify things when they do not understand it. I am a friend to them by becoming a friend.

LOVE & SMILE

You make me smile without any reason and it feels like I can be through any seasons. Aching to see you smile, to hear you laugh, I can see true happiness at last. This unconditional love is what keeps my heart beating. I’ll never get enough that’s why I always have to have you here.

I know loving someone can make you hurt but I know it’s my purpose to make you feel loved. I may not be the girl you’ve always dreamed of neither be the greatest helper. Here I am, a simple girl who'll always be with you..

Heartbreaking...

one word= super sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THATS ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!

a lesson learned n a happy me today.. XD

haha this week i'm in paeds ward..and today is thursday and i'm off for today..no work!! yeah haha... so went out to sunway pyramid with jacky..hehe =))

and i've learned some should do things+++...

Well sometimes i'm not sure about myself..about my past what i've went through, my thoughts and feelings may affected my now...

sometimes i really don't know how to explain or express what i'm thinking fully to others..

well maybe some of my thoughs maybe affected since i'm small that now i juz knew..but thats not i want too.. i'm trying and i'm sorry...hehe

hehe anyway, we watched movie-Wall Street haha, window shop...planned to buy gifts for my niece and dad's birthday its on 1st Oct tml!!!...

planned to but wallet rm 100 for my dad..but then saw a much better price and things..its more valuable from parkson hehe..a wallet, belt, a branded ballpen etc haha..

thank god and the offer is only TODAY man!!!so ngam haha..and jacky bought a Adei...something brand's bag for his future working bag..haha thank god =)

had a good shop to9..then met with his frend..abt job..didnt eat dinner as both of us super full till wanna vomit..haha went to toilet few timew ad..juz to 'do some business and flush out' wakakakakakka!!!!!!

thank god he has found a good job @ career i think...much better than others n previous..XD
I think now is the beginning of his career life..hehe =) happy me

ok la till here..nitezzzz everyone..

tkk=))

FYI- now is 01:30am..time in my blog bit sot sot..haha Havent sleep..

cant sleep though..cool down maself first..tml gonna work afternoon shift..hehe

Good Night everyone.. XDD

speechless...

Juz after an irritating incident and conversation. . . . .

I really damn hate people say things in a sarcastic way.. wanna say, juz tell directly and in a nice and pleasant way ok..

since is juz a small matter, don't need to make it big..and don't need to round the bush and tell things..tell directly please...

Now I understood..no one in this world can really understands you and ur feeling even thought had been in ur shoe before.. your thoughts, thinking, mind-set all comes from you urself and god.. u dont fully understand me though..ya I didnt say it out..but some I dont need to speak.

Hows a person's reaction is depends on the way you convey that message.in a nice, pleasant and straight-forward way or round the bush, speaks non-nense and irritates you up..

juz a sudden feeling..

well good night ... =))

new~~new~~new~~

hahaha as some of you know that I had beed using ppl's phone for quite a period..

why???~~~

coz my W380 sony ericson spoiled..and doesn't plan to buy it for that moment..

so had beed asking from person to person for phone..any phone also can..as long as its a phone hahaha...

previously was my colleague's phone, then jess' for some period.. then one day, she needs that phone back for her sis and herself urgently and now!!!...

so where can I get a phone that time and so urgently??? and how about $$$??? can I really go buy it myself??? how will i tell my parents???

pray..keep praying..praying...hahaha pray that a phone will drop down from heaven..

wahahahahahahahaha how nice if its real..

then final decision..

call dad and tell him and ask for some cash..and shockly he agreed to give me yeah!

and in betwen met with some troubles,thought all this plan tak jadi ad..

but when the phone is mine, I shall get it hahaha..

on 15 sept, we went out to sunway to survey for nokia phone...shops to shops searching..

finally, bought one is X2 with 5megapixel for rm450..haha not bad what..

syok nya.. and thanks to those who paid for me.. thanks dad, dear and me~~~hehe

and past few weeks back, my uncle and aunty bought me a notebook toshiba with a printer somemore~~ hahaha

its really dad's blessing upon me...hahaha so many more things new..thank god yea =>

a choice to make...

hey hey i'm back here... XD

recently quite a busy life..we (nurses) will become a really busy people in the future haha..*expected

Well this week i'm posted in paeds ward.with all those complains, we students cant do much things there..all must accompanied by staff nurses..

haha well ok save our energy too =)

posting there quite enjoy too..maybe I like kids haha..

playing around with them, fooling them around while need to give them medications,making all sorts of funny faces, pretending to cry with them, listening to the kids songs they singing etc...hahaha

and there can gain more knowledge that some other wards don't.and at least u have that skills and experience to do that particular things..

maybe one of choices to choose haha as we need to make a choice to which ward u're going to be posted when u're a staff nurse.

but the main obstacle is the MANAGER... WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...

Well,i think is an opportunity to learn and gain more..

I will consider about it again haha..