juz think of yourself.. juz think from your own thinking and perception only..

bull shit!~~

how many times I did this to u??..sounds like I didnt even care of it!!!

being so sellfish and juz think of that.OMG~~~~

wrong decision from beginning?? did I??

I have my own family too and need them in my life okay!!

could you just stop from being like this??? I'm really tired of it.

don simply make up a decision for me as u did!!! I hate it!

don regret..

too much of expectation, you'll get hurt easily coz u're expecting that person to be the one that's in your mind..

but in fact, you cant do this..you're wrong if u're doing this..coz thats him or her..cant expect him or her to change..

sometimes the person closest to you will hurt you the most and deeply..

say those words that pock you while that person doesn't realise it..

what's this???... hahahaha

actually who am I???

this recently I was like cant really express out myself..

cant tell what I want, what I dislikes and how I felt and how I think..

sometimes I felt sad and depressed coz of surrounding things that happened.. felt that i'm out in the midst of them..then got hurt bit..

sometimes I can really laugh till stomachache and all teeth were shown and mouth were open so big.. haha

sometimes cant describe or explain what I think of something..

sometimes i'm very impatience towards things..talk rudely.. sorry...

sometimes dont know what to do..felt so free..turning round and round in my room searching for things to do..

sometimes felt like wanna cry out loud..sometimes wanna laugh out loud..hehe *weird

sometimes i felt scared too after dreamt of those horrible terrible and scary dreams.. suddenly few men came and surround you and talk to you fiercely..

really scared those dreams really happened on me someday.. arggg.. no it WONT!!!!

sometimes felt like wanna being hug and care and loved deeply and at that moment..

sometimes really wish u are here with me..

sometimes i really wanna cry in your presence and just stay with you..

sometimes i run away from you..sorry >.< felt lazy..

I love you no matter what...thanks for loving me as who I am...

but sometimes u're expecting something from me...but I knew u're changing and learning..

I'm not perfect as well..so both of us keep encouraging and helping each other okay..

we'll walk on the path that dad prepared for us step by step..want Him to be in the midst of this relationship.. ok..

learn to see ourselves as god sees you..put the past behind after move on ur way with Him..

hehehehe hahahahahaha~~~~~~

XDDDDD i love u..

Pain extremely...

Well..its a past tensed and happened on 6th August..

Ooouch..its really very deeply extremely pain inside..

Pain.......pain.........pain..........but you didn't realized.did you??

why can't you say it in another way round??

bla..bla..bla...all that you said I've knew.ok!!

was so fed up, extremely hurt by words u said and felt like wanna hang your phone up. but I didn't coz I respect you..

as tears was seen inside my eyes. . .

really so hurted and pain by your words...

Ooouuchhh!!!!!!!!









But today and now... hehe

felt like He wanna speak to me for quite a long time.so spoke to me through him(straight forwardness)...

WOW~~~ so straight meh??? hurt la hahaha...

But...I must not get hurt easily by these things, by those hurtful words, words that are not nice to hear..

So i stood up and move on!!! Yea~~~~ also, seek dad's advice and be with Him.quiet down myself and think of everything.

pour out every of my feeling to Him as only He knows me very well.no other people even your boyfriend..

I've read a book by Joel Osteen-Your Best Life Now..from there I got confirmation.

it says:
'Learn to see yourself as God sees you-as a winner, an overcomer, as 'well able'.God wants you to accomplish great things in life, He's put incredible potentials, gifts and talents within you to enable you to do so.start stepping out in faith and acting on the desires that He's placed in your heart!!

WOW~~~ well. from here I got confirmation and got my heart peaceful and calm..its encouraging!I felt sad and disappointed with myself too..

but it wont be too long..I've made a choice and decision to do so..

Anyway,thanks for those hurtful and pain words but it helps and wake me up.. haha

I'm in a work of progress..GoD wants to change me from GOOD to BETTER to BEST!!!! ~~~~yEA~~~~ XDDD

Someone...

Thanks for making me smile and laugh when I'm not..

Thanks for guiding, leading and teaching me when I'm blur and lost..

Thanks for being my ear and a place to pour out anger and feelings..

Thanks for spending time with me whenever you can..

Thanks for telling me everything including your thoughts and feelings..

Thanks for being there for me when I need you..

Thanks for the way you stand by me always..

Thanks for all the laughters and sadness..

Thanks for the trust betwen us..

Thanks for giving me so much of good, beautiful and meaningful memories..

And most of all...

Thanks for being part of my life and fulfill my needs and know my deepest part of me..

hehehehe~~~~

THANK YOU!!!

^^

SEM6 Convocation!!!!

Convo is overed.. Fiewww...

No more choir practice and rehearsal with the tutors and person incharged..haha

Normally after class, we will have rehearsal and a choir practice at lunch hour 1-2pm..

We have Alto voice and Seprano voice..and our conductor is PAT PAT!!! haha she has a really good voice and she conducted us..

And i'm the pianist...ngek ngek ngek... we got the best keyboard-KORG at the last minute!! God do things is always last is the best!! yea.. XD

We sang 3 songs in total- Negaraku, There can be Miracles and One Malaysia.

There were some funny parts in the middle when they were singing One Malaysia..haha
* forgot the lyrics* hahahahahaa

Our clothes were 'Traditional clothes'.there were cheongsam, punjabi suits, sari, baju kurung... very colourful..