Euphoria!!! haha

Yay!!! ^^

Yeepy!!! ^^

Hooray!!! ^^ HOHOHOHOHOHO

WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA... =D

i'm going to youth camp now..hehe

where?? hmmm.... I think is in...

..............

Ah ha!!! its "BROGA HILL"... HEHE

see u..

yeeppyyy!!!!

Thanks dad even things seems no more hope and chances but there is still got if you BELIVE and have FAITH in HIM~~~ ^^

'FAITH'




thanks dad for the solutions!!! its super AWESOME!!!!!!

hehehehehehehe yea!!! I am going to the camp!!!! =D

not just ME alone..

I've learned lots about being in a relationship..is not just you alone throughout the journey.. Is both you and patner together.. =)

Even there's an misunderstood or still quarrels, but thats a good sign- that is you get to know each other more deeper and closer.sometimes its a fun to have quarrels and scolidng each other, throwing everything towards your patner hahahaha!!!

Its really a though journey but depends on how you settle it and sees things work out..

Thanks dear!!! =D

Friendship..

Recently just thinking about relationships.. relationship with parents, aquaintance, close friends, girl or boyfriend, spouses etc... All these relationship are truely fully important to all of us!!!

Now what is Friendship??...
some people said:
~"Friendship is like a contract. They’re just bound to last only for a given time. After it reached that point, there’s no more. After college, we have our own lives. Chances that we will be like this in the distant future are nil.”

~"Friendship is like a golden thread that binds two hearts...A feeling that keeps growing even when we are far apart...No matter where we are, I want you to know you're a friend i feel..."

~"Friends are like ballons.If you let them go, you can't get them back."

This really strucked me..It might be the reality about friends.Yes, it is true that we have friends or we make friends because of something. That something means similar goals and identical purpose, all falls only under a period of time.

But, I don’t look at it that way. Friendship doesn’t require similarities but rather differences to help each other grow. It’s not how you influence one another but how you bring out each other’s best.

Friendship has no vows, no rituals, no conditions, and no requirements. It only needs people willing enough to care and make friendship a lifetime.

But how can they learn lessons if I will just let them copy my work? How can they make a better person out of themselves if I am the one doing their tasks? I give my help in a different shade. I offer myself to clarify things when they do not understand it. I am a friend to them by becoming a friend.

LOVE & SMILE

You make me smile without any reason and it feels like I can be through any seasons. Aching to see you smile, to hear you laugh, I can see true happiness at last. This unconditional love is what keeps my heart beating. I’ll never get enough that’s why I always have to have you here.

I know loving someone can make you hurt but I know it’s my purpose to make you feel loved. I may not be the girl you’ve always dreamed of neither be the greatest helper. Here I am, a simple girl who'll always be with you..

Heartbreaking...

one word= super sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THATS ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!

a lesson learned n a happy me today.. XD

haha this week i'm in paeds ward..and today is thursday and i'm off for today..no work!! yeah haha... so went out to sunway pyramid with jacky..hehe =))

and i've learned some should do things+++...

Well sometimes i'm not sure about myself..about my past what i've went through, my thoughts and feelings may affected my now...

sometimes i really don't know how to explain or express what i'm thinking fully to others..

well maybe some of my thoughs maybe affected since i'm small that now i juz knew..but thats not i want too.. i'm trying and i'm sorry...hehe

hehe anyway, we watched movie-Wall Street haha, window shop...planned to buy gifts for my niece and dad's birthday its on 1st Oct tml!!!...

planned to but wallet rm 100 for my dad..but then saw a much better price and things..its more valuable from parkson hehe..a wallet, belt, a branded ballpen etc haha..

thank god and the offer is only TODAY man!!!so ngam haha..and jacky bought a Adei...something brand's bag for his future working bag..haha thank god =)

had a good shop to9..then met with his frend..abt job..didnt eat dinner as both of us super full till wanna vomit..haha went to toilet few timew ad..juz to 'do some business and flush out' wakakakakakka!!!!!!

thank god he has found a good job @ career i think...much better than others n previous..XD
I think now is the beginning of his career life..hehe =) happy me

ok la till here..nitezzzz everyone..

tkk=))

FYI- now is 01:30am..time in my blog bit sot sot..haha Havent sleep..

cant sleep though..cool down maself first..tml gonna work afternoon shift..hehe

Good Night everyone.. XDD

speechless...

Juz after an irritating incident and conversation. . . . .

I really damn hate people say things in a sarcastic way.. wanna say, juz tell directly and in a nice and pleasant way ok..

since is juz a small matter, don't need to make it big..and don't need to round the bush and tell things..tell directly please...

Now I understood..no one in this world can really understands you and ur feeling even thought had been in ur shoe before.. your thoughts, thinking, mind-set all comes from you urself and god.. u dont fully understand me though..ya I didnt say it out..but some I dont need to speak.

Hows a person's reaction is depends on the way you convey that message.in a nice, pleasant and straight-forward way or round the bush, speaks non-nense and irritates you up..

juz a sudden feeling..

well good night ... =))

new~~new~~new~~

hahaha as some of you know that I had beed using ppl's phone for quite a period..

why???~~~

coz my W380 sony ericson spoiled..and doesn't plan to buy it for that moment..

so had beed asking from person to person for phone..any phone also can..as long as its a phone hahaha...

previously was my colleague's phone, then jess' for some period.. then one day, she needs that phone back for her sis and herself urgently and now!!!...

so where can I get a phone that time and so urgently??? and how about $$$??? can I really go buy it myself??? how will i tell my parents???

pray..keep praying..praying...hahaha pray that a phone will drop down from heaven..

wahahahahahahahaha how nice if its real..

then final decision..

call dad and tell him and ask for some cash..and shockly he agreed to give me yeah!

and in betwen met with some troubles,thought all this plan tak jadi ad..

but when the phone is mine, I shall get it hahaha..

on 15 sept, we went out to sunway to survey for nokia phone...shops to shops searching..

finally, bought one is X2 with 5megapixel for rm450..haha not bad what..

syok nya.. and thanks to those who paid for me.. thanks dad, dear and me~~~hehe

and past few weeks back, my uncle and aunty bought me a notebook toshiba with a printer somemore~~ hahaha

its really dad's blessing upon me...hahaha so many more things new..thank god yea =>

a choice to make...

hey hey i'm back here... XD

recently quite a busy life..we (nurses) will become a really busy people in the future haha..*expected

Well this week i'm posted in paeds ward.with all those complains, we students cant do much things there..all must accompanied by staff nurses..

haha well ok save our energy too =)

posting there quite enjoy too..maybe I like kids haha..

playing around with them, fooling them around while need to give them medications,making all sorts of funny faces, pretending to cry with them, listening to the kids songs they singing etc...hahaha

and there can gain more knowledge that some other wards don't.and at least u have that skills and experience to do that particular things..

maybe one of choices to choose haha as we need to make a choice to which ward u're going to be posted when u're a staff nurse.

but the main obstacle is the MANAGER... WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...

Well,i think is an opportunity to learn and gain more..

I will consider about it again haha..

Yea feels very blessed!!!!!

I'm a blessed child hahahaha!!!enjoyed the days in aunty's house..hehe

got a special gift from my uncle and aunty haha.. =)

just wanna say thanks to u all dear unc n aunty..haha

enjoyed the moments here hahaha

thanks!!!! I love u!! =)

juz think of yourself.. juz think from your own thinking and perception only..

bull shit!~~

how many times I did this to u??..sounds like I didnt even care of it!!!

being so sellfish and juz think of that.OMG~~~~

wrong decision from beginning?? did I??

I have my own family too and need them in my life okay!!

could you just stop from being like this??? I'm really tired of it.

don simply make up a decision for me as u did!!! I hate it!

don regret..

too much of expectation, you'll get hurt easily coz u're expecting that person to be the one that's in your mind..

but in fact, you cant do this..you're wrong if u're doing this..coz thats him or her..cant expect him or her to change..

sometimes the person closest to you will hurt you the most and deeply..

say those words that pock you while that person doesn't realise it..

what's this???... hahahaha

actually who am I???

this recently I was like cant really express out myself..

cant tell what I want, what I dislikes and how I felt and how I think..

sometimes I felt sad and depressed coz of surrounding things that happened.. felt that i'm out in the midst of them..then got hurt bit..

sometimes I can really laugh till stomachache and all teeth were shown and mouth were open so big.. haha

sometimes cant describe or explain what I think of something..

sometimes i'm very impatience towards things..talk rudely.. sorry...

sometimes dont know what to do..felt so free..turning round and round in my room searching for things to do..

sometimes felt like wanna cry out loud..sometimes wanna laugh out loud..hehe *weird

sometimes i felt scared too after dreamt of those horrible terrible and scary dreams.. suddenly few men came and surround you and talk to you fiercely..

really scared those dreams really happened on me someday.. arggg.. no it WONT!!!!

sometimes felt like wanna being hug and care and loved deeply and at that moment..

sometimes really wish u are here with me..

sometimes i really wanna cry in your presence and just stay with you..

sometimes i run away from you..sorry >.< felt lazy..

I love you no matter what...thanks for loving me as who I am...

but sometimes u're expecting something from me...but I knew u're changing and learning..

I'm not perfect as well..so both of us keep encouraging and helping each other okay..

we'll walk on the path that dad prepared for us step by step..want Him to be in the midst of this relationship.. ok..

learn to see ourselves as god sees you..put the past behind after move on ur way with Him..

hehehehe hahahahahaha~~~~~~

XDDDDD i love u..

Pain extremely...

Well..its a past tensed and happened on 6th August..

Ooouch..its really very deeply extremely pain inside..

Pain.......pain.........pain..........but you didn't realized.did you??

why can't you say it in another way round??

bla..bla..bla...all that you said I've knew.ok!!

was so fed up, extremely hurt by words u said and felt like wanna hang your phone up. but I didn't coz I respect you..

as tears was seen inside my eyes. . .

really so hurted and pain by your words...

Ooouuchhh!!!!!!!!









But today and now... hehe

felt like He wanna speak to me for quite a long time.so spoke to me through him(straight forwardness)...

WOW~~~ so straight meh??? hurt la hahaha...

But...I must not get hurt easily by these things, by those hurtful words, words that are not nice to hear..

So i stood up and move on!!! Yea~~~~ also, seek dad's advice and be with Him.quiet down myself and think of everything.

pour out every of my feeling to Him as only He knows me very well.no other people even your boyfriend..

I've read a book by Joel Osteen-Your Best Life Now..from there I got confirmation.

it says:
'Learn to see yourself as God sees you-as a winner, an overcomer, as 'well able'.God wants you to accomplish great things in life, He's put incredible potentials, gifts and talents within you to enable you to do so.start stepping out in faith and acting on the desires that He's placed in your heart!!

WOW~~~ well. from here I got confirmation and got my heart peaceful and calm..its encouraging!I felt sad and disappointed with myself too..

but it wont be too long..I've made a choice and decision to do so..

Anyway,thanks for those hurtful and pain words but it helps and wake me up.. haha

I'm in a work of progress..GoD wants to change me from GOOD to BETTER to BEST!!!! ~~~~yEA~~~~ XDDD

Someone...

Thanks for making me smile and laugh when I'm not..

Thanks for guiding, leading and teaching me when I'm blur and lost..

Thanks for being my ear and a place to pour out anger and feelings..

Thanks for spending time with me whenever you can..

Thanks for telling me everything including your thoughts and feelings..

Thanks for being there for me when I need you..

Thanks for the way you stand by me always..

Thanks for all the laughters and sadness..

Thanks for the trust betwen us..

Thanks for giving me so much of good, beautiful and meaningful memories..

And most of all...

Thanks for being part of my life and fulfill my needs and know my deepest part of me..

hehehehe~~~~

THANK YOU!!!

^^

SEM6 Convocation!!!!

Convo is overed.. Fiewww...

No more choir practice and rehearsal with the tutors and person incharged..haha

Normally after class, we will have rehearsal and a choir practice at lunch hour 1-2pm..

We have Alto voice and Seprano voice..and our conductor is PAT PAT!!! haha she has a really good voice and she conducted us..

And i'm the pianist...ngek ngek ngek... we got the best keyboard-KORG at the last minute!! God do things is always last is the best!! yea.. XD

We sang 3 songs in total- Negaraku, There can be Miracles and One Malaysia.

There were some funny parts in the middle when they were singing One Malaysia..haha
* forgot the lyrics* hahahahahaa

Our clothes were 'Traditional clothes'.there were cheongsam, punjabi suits, sari, baju kurung... very colourful..

XD Jesus Loves Me..

Jesus loves me this I know..

For the Bible tells me so..

Little wants to Him belongs..

They are weak, but He is STRONG!!!!

Chorus:
Yes, Jesus loves me..

Yes Jesus loves me..

Yes, Jesus loves me.......

For the Bible tells me sooo.... ^^ AMEN..

Running Assessment...

Today stayed in college since morning for some discussions and final touch-up for our RA tomorrow...

Well..everything was done and its very nice and attractive plus those interesting
pics..haha ^^

Then our tutor came to brief us about the cooking demo that gonna held on Friday:
~ What stuffs to buy...(fish, bayam-vege, porridge, papaya)
~ How will you cook it based on the age and developement of a child @ toddler...
~ How you gonna teach and educate those ante-natal mom on the diet of baby etc...

One word- No communication and no effort!

If wanna do and get good marks, should put 100% effort on it rite??...

So..already a habit for me since last time..

"Always wash their butt for them after they BO"

Is ok...I'm willing to do so and I like it too... feels good and satisfied after everything's done..haha

thanks dad!!! =)

In YOU, I fine my peace, I bend my knee..

Recently so many things happened and juz bloat up.. And I don't know excatly how to solve it. is juz so sudden

Sometimes felt that I'm lost, wondering things... Is all these satan's attack?..

Felt like my shoulder full of things yet to solve.but I have no idea. I've tried my best to do so. I'm sad, heart-breaking to see all these..

And currently no one can help me to reduce it..my most efficient helper are not here..and one is going too..

Am trying my very best to stand up again and go back to HIM and rest there..

CNY Break!!! Is TODAY!!!

haha I'm going back for CNY break for 1 week lo!!! so don't miss me ya my dear frendss.. haha =)

*perasan* XD

is my last day in my college and hostel now.. all of my frends are in "Holiday MoOd" now..

so we think we must focus during lecture..coz we knew our good, kind-hearted tutor will release us early..hahaha!!! (normally we're sleeping) ^^

Normally she ask us" tutor:any questions to ask me??

us: Nope..we don't have any questions to ask you..we understood everything..

tutor: Wow!!! really?? this group of students so clever ar..haha

us: haha!! ya ya of course... ^^"

Then today she said: I knew you all don't have any questions to ask me.. haha
*laughing greatly*

she knew us truly and understands where our souls and mind is..haha =)


We're right!! she released us almost 3pm..YEAH!!! everyone of us are so excited to grab our luggages and bags to get back home...

Before class dismiss, one of our malay friend wanna sings a song to all the Chinese frends..

*GONG XI GONG XI song* chinese edition

WOW!!! She sang accurately and nice nice!! (coz some part I taught her.haha!)

Had great time together with these bunch of friends.. they're great!

Miss them!!! muackz.. see u guys!

Have a blessed Chinese New Year with ur love ones.. ENJOY!!! =)

3 more days to go...

3 more days for what le???

haha to go back hometown la and collect as much ang pao as I can..hehe ^^

*thumbs up*

Will be going back to my couz's house first in Kuantan and spend my 1st and 2nd day of CNY there!!!(normally I get most of red packets frm here) hehe

And will meet up with my dear dad , mom and little cute bro there and walap all the food there until stomach bloated.. hahaha!!!

*Yummy* start missing it..

Ooppss getting hungry now.. ><

And will watch lion dance performance that normally come visit my aunt's house.haha

then visit my old and lovely grandma..good that she still can remember us coz we normally visits her once in a while when we go there...

All my relatives and couz from out station,worldwide from my dad's side will gather there as BIH HUGE GIANT family and be noisy for 24 hours..haha

Can't wait for that moment.. wakakakaka ~thumbs up~

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!!! XDD